my feelings for "manok" was starting to fade. i don't know why... maybe because of our communication. he don't send me text messages anymore. he told me that his Globe simcard was lost and the simcard he is using right now is Smart. i doubt that he's not telling the truth. i think he's courting a new girl who is using a Smart simcard that is why he has to use Smart simcard, too. maybe that girl is from his school. hmmmm. i can't blame him and i have no rights to stop him 'cause i'm not even his girlfriend. ughh. i'll be just happy for him. after all, i know we'll stay as FRIENDS.

ok, enough with that. i have a freakin' cold since saturday and good thing our afternoon class today was cut. maybe because of the regada tomorrow or maybe because of the party for our new principal. anyways, i was so happy this morning. some unexpected things happened. M*** (from my previous post), played XOX with me! haha. i was playing XOX with my classmate when he came and said, he'll play with me. i was like, blushing. they said my face was turning red! haha. and after that, we went to AVR to watch a movie about the Greek gods and goddesses. when i am about to sit, M*** told me to sit beside him. the class was starting to tease us! (we have no teacher) i was refusing but my other classmates are telling me to sit beside him. they were forcing me, so that's it! i sat beside him. i was really blushing and i don't know what to do! haha. he keeps on asking me, why i am not talking to him, and i will just answer him with a smile. hahaha. i really don't know what to say. he also asked my number. haha. when the bell rang, indicating that it is already lunch time, he told me "Wala na Pamela. Text-text na lang." haha. i answered him again with a smile.

this is one of my happiest day! even though i'm gradually losing one important person in my life, there is this guy who's just entering my life. and i hope he has a good intention. :)

i am currently......sad and i don't know the exact reason. i don't know if it is about "manok" or it has something to do with my "past". i wanna cry but i don't have any reason. lately this afternoon, for some reasons, i was so very happy. i don't know why my feelings had changed. :/

good thing there is still a reason for me to be happy. this afternoon, i went to my classmate's "mansion" (very large house, feels like i'm on a mansion XD) to practice our play in English. it is about Greek gods and goddesses. unfortunately, we are not complete when we practiced so we decided to practice just a little of it and just watch tv afterwards. while watching tv, we opened a discussion. it is about, uhmm, might as well not to tell you. haha. it's private. then while chatting, the phone rang. when Lyanne answered it, it's our classmate, our classmate whom they tease with me. they thought i have a crush on him. haha. well, i had a crush on him but that was when i was still a junior high! haha. remember my post about out JS prom? it's him! so they're bringing back the past, huh. hahaha. ok, after he talked to Lyanne, Lyanne called me and said "Si M*** nasa phone! hinahanap ka Pam!" (M*** is on the phone! He's looking for you, Pam!) i was so nervous when Lyanne said that. i felt like dreaming 'cause i know M*** would not do that. so when i held the phone, i talked to him. haha. i never talked to him in the classroom so i was shaking and even my voice was shaking when i said "hello". then he replied "hello". then i replied "hello" again until i found myself laughing because of.....happiness? haha. my classmates started teasing me when we finished "talking". haha. i was like blushing or whatever. hahahaha. i don't even look at him in the classroom that's why i still can't believe that i talked to him! haha.

i don't know what to do in school tomorrow if i see him. i don't know if i am going to smile or what. or should i talk to him? hahaha. ohh nooooo. :)

i haven't posted anything on my blog these past few days. it is because i am so busy doing a lot of things (school stuffs). i've been busy doing these and that's. but now i have my free time. i can now tell you guys what happened on my first week as a senior in school.

i still can't believe that i've survived my first week in my section. i feel so pressured because, all we know, ALL of the students who belong in the first section are "geniuses" and i don't think i belong there. yes, i'm a pessimist, i know.

i observed so many things in my new classmates. they're really not the same with my old classmate. yes, they get too noisy sometimes, but not like with my old classmates. i also noticed that when the teachers ask something about the lesson, almost 1/4 of the class raises their hands. well, what do you expect? they're smart! they're not like the "ordinary" students. ugh, i'm still adjusting. i'm still doing my best to fit in the first section.

hmmm. wish me luck guys! oh, and i have to study by now. we have a test(already) on monday. tsk! take care guys! :D

lately, i noticed that i'm starting to have visitors from the other country. it's a big surprise for me 'cause i know that Filipinos, like me, are the only one who visit my site. so i decided to change my style of blogging, or should i say, the language i'm using. i decided to speak in English so every one who visits here can understand what i am saying for english is the international language, right? so from now on, i'll be using my "powers", haha! just kidding. :) i'll ready myself for this hahaha.

summer is almost over. hmmm. medyo na-enjoy ko rin at dahil yun sa Stkae Youth Conference and dahil sa marami akong bagong friends na nakilala. ngayon.....i'm getting ready na for school.

and may isa pa akong pinaghahandaan. at.....ayoko talaga doon. haaayy. guys, pumayag na ako sa first section. i don't like it there...di ko alam kung makakatagal ako doon. pumayag ako dahil sa parents ko. it's their first time na magkaron ng anak na makakapag-aral sa first section. and alam kong matutuwa sila kaya kahit sobrang hirap para sakin ang pumayag doon mag-aral, pumayag na ko.

i know, i'll make them happy...and i will do my very best for them. wish me luck. :)

Female, 15, Cavite

the name is pamela espinosa sanarez. pam's the nick name. living my 15 years of simple life since october 21, 1993. caviteña. sebastinian. latter-day saint. proudly pinoy. friendster addict. music lover. supports OPM. a hayley williams fanatic. amateur photographer. math geek. hopeless pianist. daydreamer. green-pink-blue-yellow. couch potato. procrastinator. taong bahay. and lastly, a worst singer. ;) read my posts and know me better.

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