February wasn't supposed to be a "broken-hearted" month. February is the month of love but why all these things are happening to us, especially to my closest friend, camille. lagi na lang siya heart-broken and i don't want seeing her like that. when she's hurt, i'm hurt, too. and unfortunately, lagi na lang yung lalaking YUN yung nakakahurt sa kanya. i don't know if he's doing it intentionally but i still believe that he is a good guy. but i don't think he's a good guy for camille. most of the time, he's sweet to my friend especially when they're talking to the phone, but one day we found out that he is not ONLY sweet to camille, but also to the other girls in our room. what kind of guy is that?! minsan nga napapa-isip na nga ako na baka pinapaasa lang niya si camille. and i don't like that! my friend doesn't deserve that. sobra-sobra na ang pagmamahal sa kanya ni camille. wag niya sana abusuhin yun.

the worst part of the story is, one of our closest friend confessed to us that he like the guy whose i'm talking about recently and......that guy was courting our friend "secretly". what kind of life is this?! now my friend was suffering from heartaches. wala naman yun sa kanya kung iba yung niligawan nung lalaking yun pero, close friend kasi namin yung niligawan ehh. and before, camille was telling (love) stories to our friend. and todo support naman yung friend naming yun. that's why we're so surprise to hear from our friend that she like the same guy that camille like.

these past few days, we snob that friend of ours, not because we're mad at her, is just that, we just let time to heal my friend's heart. healing a heart wasn't that fast. we just wait for the right time to come for us to be "close friends" again.

nobody said that you cannot celebrate Valentine's day when you're loveless, right? LOL. haha. well i celebrated my Valentine's day at the Imus chapel. we had there the Stake Youths Valentine's Party. and guess what, i am the representative of our ward for the Princess of the Night. haha, ganito iyon. they offered me something. sabi nila na kami daw ni Melbourne ang representative ng Cavite 1st to dance Cotillion. so pumayag naman ako. when February 14 comes, hala, hindi ko alam na contest pala iyon. hahaha, wala pa kong experience sa mga ganoong contest that's why i was so nervious that night. pero enjoy naman. i met a lot of new friends from other wards. so ayun, contest nga yun. sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko, bahala na si batman. haha! unfortunately, hindi ako nanalo. pero that's ok kasi good sport naman ako. experience din iyon nu. XD haha.

ok enough with that contest. :)) nung dance social na, i was SOOOO as in SOOOO HAPPY! haha, andaming nagyaya saking sumayaw. some are my old friends and some are just new. and eto pa, isa dun.....si KEVIN. haha, ewan ko ba kung bakit ganoon na lang ako kasaya nung nagkasayaw kami. samantalang dati inis ako sa kanya. hehe, almost three times ko nga siya nakasayaw ehh. and siya ang last dance ko.ü basta i was so happy that night. :)))))
wala man akong OFFICIAL love for now, marami namang nagpasaya sakin nung Valentine's day. i can now testify that Valentine's day is not just only for lovers, it's also for loveless like me! :D haha.

something special happened last Wednesday, January 28. (sorry for the late post.) i was so very happy on that day. :DD ok, to begin with my story, i'll start from the time i woke up. :) haha.

around 6:30-11:00, i was on our church. my activity kasi ang young men. nakisingit lang kaming young women. hehe, ok enough with that. when i returned home, i already fixed myself kasi pupunta kami ng mga groupmates ko sa bahay ni Camille (groupmate) sa kawit para ayusin yung newspaper namin. we met at McDonald's after lunch. when we're complete na, sumakay na kami ng bus. when we got to Camille's house, we already did our project. as usual, ako yung my pinakamahirap na gagawin. hehe, ang maglagay ng margins. haha :D then i received a text from ace. guess what, unli siya (mabuti na lang unli rin ako) haha, so ayun nagkatext kami. then tinanong niya ko kung bakit ako nasa kawit. sinabi ko naman kung bakit. when i was telling that to him, nasa bus na rin siya, on his way home from school. then bigla niya na lang naisip na panu kaya kung magkita kami. pumayag naman ako kasi MISS ko na siya. and i also wanted to see him. he told me na magkita na lang kami sa fire station. sa kawit rin yun.

when we're already through with our project, umuwi na rin kami. we ride the bus. dun na ko bumaba sa fire station to see him. una nga di ko pa siya nakita ehh. nagtago pa yata. hehe, then nung nakita ko na yung isang lalaki na naka blue polo, lumakas na yung tibok ng puso ko. tapos biglang lumapit sakin. haha, it was him! di ko talaga maexplain yung feelings ko when i saw him. yung time na yun, gusto ko talagang tumigil yung oras. gusto ko siyang i-hug. haaaay D: hmm, then nung wala na kaming masakyang bus, nagtricycle na lang kami. from kawit to noveleta. haha, then sumakay na kami ng bus. lahat yun treat niya. nahihiya nga ko ehh. laki kasi ng nagastos niya. when we got to cavite, niyaya niya kong kumain sa jollibee. haha, ang kulit kulit niya. sobra. di pa rin siya nagbabago. nakakamiss talaga siya. after nun, hinatid niya na ko sa bahay. while walking niloloko niya ko. sabi kasi niya ilakad ko raw siya sa ate ko. haha, pagnagtabi yun sila aakalain ng iba mag-ate sila. wahehehe. then something happened. biglang tumahimik. bigla niyang kinuha kamay ko. hinawakan niya ng mahigpit. then he told me namiss kita. sabay smile. grabe para akong natunaw sa smile niya. well too bad hanggang dun na lang yun. sa pasmile smile. nung nagbye na siya, nagkatitigan kami. kala ko kung anu mangyayari, bigla niyang pinindot yung ilong ko. hehe, then bye bye na. nagthanks ako. nagthanks din siya. naglakad na siya. sumakay na ng jeep. haaaay. i was so happy when i went inside. but i feel something incomplete. no more i love you not like dati. dami na talagang nagbago. pero i think dito kami magiging happy. we'll wait na lang until we're ready AGAIN for that relationship.

today's the beginning of Heart's month, February. and i will be expecting a lot of happenings this month, i guess. so i also have a lot of reasons to excuse myself for not writing on my blog. (; nahh.. just kidding. i think mas kailangan ko ngang magpost ngaung month ehh. to keep some happy memories. hehe, and kung matutuloy yung pagbili ko ng new cp, maipapakita ko na rin yung mga pictures on the coming events (yey!!) so here's some of my schedules:

Feb 7: sasama ako sa best friend ko sa church niya.
Feb 9-10: practice of our field demo for our foundation day
Feb 11-14: foundation day
Feb 14: stake youth ♥'s party @ rosario chapel

i didn't include my schedules for our newspaper making. i'm not yet sure pa kung kailan ang mga araw na yun. pero i'm sure na once or twice a week kami gagawa. dadagdagan ko pa yan kung my upcoming events pa. but for now yan muna. hehe, what a busy month. D:

Female, 15, Cavite

the name is pamela espinosa sanarez. pam's the nick name. living my 15 years of simple life since october 21, 1993. caviteña. sebastinian. latter-day saint. proudly pinoy. friendster addict. music lover. supports OPM. a hayley williams fanatic. amateur photographer. math geek. hopeless pianist. daydreamer. green-pink-blue-yellow. couch potato. procrastinator. taong bahay. and lastly, a worst singer. ;) read my posts and know me better.

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