i'm already tired from doing a lot of things today but i still wanted to post here on my blog. i don't know what keeps on pushing me from posting but then, i will continue.

i thought that this 4th grading will be a lot easier than the previous gradings. i thought that there will be less projects and easier tests, but my expectations were wrong. i am now doing a lot of projects and it is one of the reasonS why i can't post here on my blog. luckily, i have my free time for today.

these past few days, i have a feeling of "quiting" in life. get it? i don't like what's happening in my life these past days. i'm encountering a lot of problems. problems in school, in family, and in friends. i don't know how to handle it all. it's all a big burden that i will carry everyday. every night, i just wanna cry out all my hardships. i kept on asking myself why all these things are happening to me. i can't explain and enumerate all my problems because they are so many! ugh. this is the first time that i encountered these lot of problems. before, i know how to handle problems. but this time, i'm out of control and there's this time that i wanna........... hmmmm.

i know that God has given me these problems because he knows that i can solve these. but why am i feeling like this? why am i feeling so depressed and quiting? or maybe i am just elated.

for now, i decided not to plan ever again to end my life. i just needed someone to comfort me. as simple as that. i just wanna be more faithful to God so i can solve my problems with no worries. i will continue doing things that i should do plus, things that will give me peace. i'll be a good daughter, a loyal friend, and a more industrious student.

Female, 15, Cavite

the name is pamela espinosa sanarez. pam's the nick name. living my 15 years of simple life since october 21, 1993. caviteña. sebastinian. latter-day saint. proudly pinoy. friendster addict. music lover. supports OPM. a hayley williams fanatic. amateur photographer. math geek. hopeless pianist. daydreamer. green-pink-blue-yellow. couch potato. procrastinator. taong bahay. and lastly, a worst singer. ;) read my posts and know me better.

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