Inside the Imagination

It's ok. :|

2009-10-17T13:43:00.006+08:00

"Don't return to me if you think that I'm not worth your time."

my birthday is coming.......and i can't feel it. nothing good was really happening to me these days. D: tired, sad, felt rejected, depressed. ugh. i don't know. i just don't feel myself. what i had showed these days was not really the real thing i'm feeling. it is because of. . . . . . :|

nonsense post.

[2:07]

SJ SJ

2009-10-10T15:26:00.009+08:00

i'm back!....again! i've been so busy these past few days. or should i say, these WHOLE September. and honestly, i've been so lazy updating my blog. haha. ok sorry for that.

time really moves so fast! it's October at last! i'm already started counting down for my birthday on the 21st. but i don't feel that excited. i just wanted my birthday to come. it'll be my sweet sixteen. (ahhh! i'm gonna turn 16 already?!) even though i'll be turning sixteen on 21, there is still a childish part of me THAT I WANTED TO REMOVED. i'm sick of people telling me that i'm childish. yes i know that but do they really have to say that? *sigh* ok i don't want to talk about it anymore. haha. my day is coming. i have to be happy. :| hmmm.

ok ok ok. i have this another "obsession" again. (btw, i don't like Justin Bieber anymore. there are so many who already like him and he already became popular here in the Philippines. it sucks. xD) haha. i am now obsessed with Super Junior! they are a boy band in Korea. i really like their songs and their looks! they're so cute! haha. (ok i have to stop myself from being a fangirl again. xD)

but the sad part for me is............they're starting to become popular here in the Philippines! and that's not good. the fate of the other Korean celebrities might also happen to them. their song can be a great hit. and there's a possibility that what had happened to the song 'Nobody' can also happen to their songs, too! gosh. pwedeng mababoy ang kanta nila. T.T poor Super Junior. but i promise, whatever may happen to them, i'll stay a big fan of them. :D

[4:41]

after the idleness....i'm back!

2009-09-04T22:44:00.008+08:00

i feel so sorry for this site. haha. sorry for not updating my blog for a long time. i'm kinda busy at school and lazy enough for not writing here. haha. and also, there is someone who teases me every time i have a new post. (Danna, i hope your reading these. haha.) but i still promise not to abandon my blog again. i'll still do my best to keep my blog updated.

i have so many things to tell you guys but i'm not sure if i can say it all here. there are so many things had happened these past few days. let's start with the fact that today is september! ALREADY! it is the start of the ber-months. it means Christmas is near! and there would be so many happenings this month, too: our EDUCATIONAL field trip (very educational. have they ever heard the word "fun"? ugh.), some of my friends' birthdays including HIS birthday, and some school activities. i'm expecting a very tiring month.

BTW, have i told you guys about this certain guy who courts me? i think he's been courting me for half a month. hmmm. we've been close friends before he started courting me. too bad that closeness had change. naiilang na kami sa isa't isa. and maybe it is the reason why i started to like him less. he's not the type of guy who is serious in courting. i can't even feel his effort. and now, i feel like he doesn't like to court me anymore. i don't know but i think i'm right. well, i know that it would be for our own good if we stopped this na. nothing good is happening and i think we're both wasting our time (i have to admit it). but i'm still waiting for his decision.

ok enough with that. i'm getting hooked up with this game on facebook. it is called Friends For Sale or FFS. in that game, you need to buy your friends as your pets. you'll first be given a certain amount of money. by buying your friends, their value will increase. you can also do stuffs to them and by that, you can earn money. if someone bought your pet, you'll lost it but still, you'll earn good money. i'm so addicted to that game. i kept on buying my friends especially those with high value. hahaha.

that's all for now. i have to sleep na. i'll be waking up so early for tomorrow's Alay Lakad. we'll be walking from dalahican checkpoint up to samonte park. it would be a long walk for tomorrow. after that i'll be heading off to our church for our Stake Seminary. yey! scripture chase again. :D bye for now!

[11:28]

J U S T I N ♥

2009-08-07T14:17:00.012+08:00

uhh. i think i'm inlove......

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......with this guy!

weeeeeeee! he's Justin Bieber. my future husband! haha. just kidding. i discovered him because of my brother's girlfriend. she posted a link to Justin's video on Facebook. after watching the video, that's the time i started admiring him. he's so talented. he has a good voice and he can play the guiter good, too. plus, i found out that he's only 15 years old! just like me! and based on my research, he was first discovered on Youtube when he was just 11 years old playing drums! hahaha. and he became more popular when he started covering the songs of some popular RnB singers like Usher and Chris Brown. he is now more popular in the US. many people are now admiring him.

i like his song "One Time". i think it is his most popular song. here is a video of the music video's befind the scene..

the official music video is already out in Youtube. unfortunately, the video is not yet available here in the Philippines. so i guess i really have to wait.

some of his pictures..

isn't he so CUTE? :D

more updates about him COMING SOON! :)

[2:55]

On God and Science.

2009-07-23T17:33:00.004+08:00

i read these on a bulletin post of my friend in Friendster. it's quite long, but worth the read. :)

On God and Science.

A science professor begins his school year with a lecture to the students, ‘Let me explain the problem science has with religion.’ The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.

‘You’re a Christian, aren’t you, son?’

‘Yes sir,’ the student says.

‘So you believe in God?’

‘Absolutely.

‘Is God good?’

‘Sure! God’s good.’

‘Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?’

‘Yes.’

‘Are you good or evil?’

‘The Bible says I’m evil.’

The professor grins knowingly. ‘Aha! The Bible!’ He considers for a moment. ‘Here’s one for you. Let’s say there’s a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?’

‘Yes sir, I would.’

‘So you’re good…!’

‘I wouldn’t say that.’

‘But why not say that? You’d help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could.. But God doesn’t.’

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. ‘He doesn’t, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?’

The student remains silent.

‘No, you can’t, can you?’ the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

‘Let’s start

again, young fella. Is God good?’

‘Er….yes,’ the student says.

‘Is Satan good?’

The student doesn’t hesitate on this one. ‘No.’

‘Then where does Satan come from?’

The student falters. ‘From God’

‘That’s right. God made Satan, didn’t he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?’

‘Yes, sir.’

‘Evil’s everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything, correct?’

‘Yes.’

‘So who created evil?’ The professor continued, ‘If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.’

Again, the student has no answer. ‘Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?’

The student squirms on his feet. ‘Yes.’

‘So who created them?’

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question. ‘Who created them?’ There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized. ‘Tell me,’ he continues onto another student. ‘Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?’

The student’s voice betrays him and cracks. ‘Yes, professor, I do.’

The old man stops pacing. ‘Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?’

‘No sir. I’ve never seen Him.’

‘Then tell us if you’ve ever heard your Jesus?’

‘No, sir, I have not.’

‘Have you ever felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?’

‘No, sir, I’m afraid I haven’t.’

‘Yet you still believe in him?’

‘Yes.’

‘According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?’

‘Nothing,’ the student replies. ‘I only have my faith.’

‘Yes, faith,’ the professor repeats. ‘And that is the problem

science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.’

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of His own. ‘Professor, is there such thing as heat?’

‘Yes,’ the professor replies. ‘There’s heat.’

‘And is there such a thing as cold?’

‘Yes, son, there’s cold too.’

‘No sir, there isn’t.’

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain. ‘You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don’t have anything called ‘cold’. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees.’

‘Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat. You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.’

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

‘What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?’

‘Yes,’ the professor replies without hesitation. ‘What is night if

it isn’t darkness?’

‘You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it’s called darkness, isn’t it? That’s the meaning we use to define the word.’

‘In reality, darkness isn’t. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?’

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester. ‘So what point are you making, young man?’

‘Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.’

The professor’s face cannot hide his surprise this time.

‘Flawed? Can you explain how?’

‘You are working on the premise of duality,’ the student explains. ‘You argue that there is life and then there’s death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can’t even explain a thought.’

‘It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.’

‘Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?’

‘If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do.’

‘Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?’

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

‘Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?’

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.

‘To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.’

The student looks around the room.. ‘Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the

professor’s brain?’ The class breaks out into laughter.

‘Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor’s brain, felt the professor’s brain, touched or smelt the professor’s brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir.’

‘So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?’

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. ‘I guess you’ll have to take them on faith.’

‘Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,’ the student

continues. ‘Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?’

Now uncertain, the professor responds, ‘Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man’s inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.’

To this the student replied, ‘Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God’s love present in his heart. It’s like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.’

The professor sat down.

To be a Christian means to forgive the inexcusable, because God has forgiven the inexcusable in you. Through life people will make you mad, disrespect you and treat you bad. Let God deal with the things they do, because hate in your heart will consume you too!

[5:54]

And he said..

2009-07-11T17:44:00.005+08:00

i was bored...so here i am, sitting in front of the computer...AGAIN.

i'm actually in the mood to share with you guys some "cheesy" lines from........HIM? haha. here it goes.

...in the canteen:
HIM: hi Pam. libre mo naman ako.
ME: ano gusto mo? *smiles*
HIM: ang matamis mong OO.

hahahaha. i was like laughing when he said those words. i know he's joking but i still felt a little "kilig?". xD

so cheeeeeesy. haha.

[5:48]

A big thanks.

2009-07-05T18:07:00.008+08:00

i'm starting to have fun in my section. i realized that my expectations for the first section at first were wrong. i first thought that the first section was a very BORING section. but then i realized that i was wrong. first section wasn't that bad. the people there were nice, they don't bite. haha. i'm starting to have close friends there and i'm not feeling out-of-place anymore. i think they do things for me to be comfortable with them. and i like it. :)

by the way, last friday we had our election for the club officers. i joined the English Club and the Exponent Club (math club). we had fun having the elections especially in the English Club. we were all laughing every time the president speaks in English because we were not used to it when he speaks English. then after that, the election for the club officers for the Exponent Club started. Wilma was the president and the vice presidents are Stephanie (from the third year) and HIM! yes him. he was the External Vice President. he is not elected rather he is appointed. i think he is appointed by the adviser of the club (Mrs. Edralin). see, he is really good in math and maybe it is the reason why he was appointed. :D after that, we started electing for the secretary. FORTUNATELY, my friend nominated me. and my other friend nominated one of my classmate. we were the only two who were nominated as the secretary. luckily, i won (weeeee). thanks to my very nice friend who nominared me and thanks for the others who voted me. i was really happy because it is one of my goal this school year, to be an officer of one of the club. and i was also happy because it is the Exponent Club. i was a member of that club since first year. i really love math. :)

one more thing, last Regada (our water festival here in Cavite city), i won the 3rd place in Slogan Making Contest. it was my first time to win a contest like that especially that more students from different schools joined the contest. even though i only got the 3rd place, i'm glad that i won. my prize was P500 and a trophy! haha. the money was a big help for me because that time, i really needed money to buy my laboratory manual. my parents were very proud of me especially my mom. hehe. i really thank God for that blessing. :)

[6:36]

Finally.

2009-06-23T14:15:00.006+08:00

my feelings for "manok" was starting to fade. i don't know why... maybe because of our communication. he don't send me text messages anymore. he told me that his Globe simcard was lost and the simcard he is using right now is Smart. i doubt that he's not telling the truth. i think he's courting a new girl who is using a Smart simcard that is why he has to use Smart simcard, too. maybe that girl is from his school. hmmmm. i can't blame him and i have no rights to stop him 'cause i'm not even his girlfriend. ughh. i'll be just happy for him. after all, i know we'll stay as FRIENDS.

ok, enough with that. i have a freakin' cold since saturday and good thing our afternoon class today was cut. maybe because of the regada tomorrow or maybe because of the party for our new principal. anyways, i was so happy this morning. some unexpected things happened. M*** (from my previous post), played XOX with me! haha. i was playing XOX with my classmate when he came and said, he'll play with me. i was like, blushing. they said my face was turning red! haha. and after that, we went to AVR to watch a movie about the Greek gods and goddesses. when i am about to sit, M*** told me to sit beside him. the class was starting to tease us! (we have no teacher) i was refusing but my other classmates are telling me to sit beside him. they were forcing me, so that's it! i sat beside him. i was really blushing and i don't know what to do! haha. he keeps on asking me, why i am not talking to him, and i will just answer him with a smile. hahaha. i really don't know what to say. he also asked my number. haha. when the bell rang, indicating that it is already lunch time, he told me "Wala na Pamela. Text-text na lang." haha. i answered him again with a smile.

this is one of my happiest day! even though i'm gradually losing one important person in my life, there is this guy who's just entering my life. and i hope he has a good intention. :)

[2:42]

They're bringing him back!

2009-06-18T21:34:00.005+08:00

i am currently......sad and i don't know the exact reason. i don't know if it is about "manok" or it has something to do with my "past". i wanna cry but i don't have any reason. lately this afternoon, for some reasons, i was so very happy. i don't know why my feelings had changed. :/

good thing there is still a reason for me to be happy. this afternoon, i went to my classmate's "mansion" (very large house, feels like i'm on a mansion XD) to practice our play in English. it is about Greek gods and goddesses. unfortunately, we are not complete when we practiced so we decided to practice just a little of it and just watch tv afterwards. while watching tv, we opened a discussion. it is about, uhmm, might as well not to tell you. haha. it's private. then while chatting, the phone rang. when Lyanne answered it, it's our classmate, our classmate whom they tease with me. they thought i have a crush on him. haha. well, i had a crush on him but that was when i was still a junior high! haha. remember my post about out JS prom? it's him! so they're bringing back the past, huh. hahaha. ok, after he talked to Lyanne, Lyanne called me and said "Si M*** nasa phone! hinahanap ka Pam!" (M*** is on the phone! He's looking for you, Pam!) i was so nervous when Lyanne said that. i felt like dreaming 'cause i know M*** would not do that. so when i held the phone, i talked to him. haha. i never talked to him in the classroom so i was shaking and even my voice was shaking when i said "hello". then he replied "hello". then i replied "hello" again until i found myself laughing because of.....happiness? haha. my classmates started teasing me when we finished "talking". haha. i was like blushing or whatever. hahahaha. i don't even look at him in the classroom that's why i still can't believe that i talked to him! haha.

i don't know what to do in school tomorrow if i see him. i don't know if i am going to smile or what. or should i talk to him? hahaha. ohh nooooo. :)

[10:14]

Still adjusting.

2009-06-13T18:30:00.006+08:00

i haven't posted anything on my blog these past few days. it is because i am so busy doing a lot of things (school stuffs). i've been busy doing these and that's. but now i have my free time. i can now tell you guys what happened on my first week as a senior in school.

i still can't believe that i've survived my first week in my section. i feel so pressured because, all we know, ALL of the students who belong in the first section are "geniuses" and i don't think i belong there. yes, i'm a pessimist, i know.

i observed so many things in my new classmates. they're really not the same with my old classmate. yes, they get too noisy sometimes, but not like with my old classmates. i also noticed that when the teachers ask something about the lesson, almost 1/4 of the class raises their hands. well, what do you expect? they're smart! they're not like the "ordinary" students. ugh, i'm still adjusting. i'm still doing my best to fit in the first section.

hmmm. wish me luck guys! oh, and i have to study by now. we have a test(already) on monday. tsk! take care guys! :D

[6:56]

New Visitors, New Changes.

2009-06-06T13:12:00.006+08:00

lately, i noticed that i'm starting to have visitors from the other country. it's a big surprise for me 'cause i know that Filipinos, like me, are the only one who visit my site. so i decided to change my style of blogging, or should i say, the language i'm using. i decided to speak in English so every one who visits here can understand what i am saying for english is the international language, right? so from now on, i'll be using my "powers", haha! just kidding. :) i'll ready myself for this hahaha.

[1:22]

Long way journey.

2009-06-03T22:10:00.006+08:00

summer is almost over. hmmm. medyo na-enjoy ko rin at dahil yun sa Stkae Youth Conference and dahil sa marami akong bagong friends na nakilala. ngayon.....i'm getting ready na for school.

and may isa pa akong pinaghahandaan. at.....ayoko talaga doon. haaayy. guys, pumayag na ako sa first section. i don't like it there...di ko alam kung makakatagal ako doon. pumayag ako dahil sa parents ko. it's their first time na magkaron ng anak na makakapag-aral sa first section. and alam kong matutuwa sila kaya kahit sobrang hirap para sakin ang pumayag doon mag-aral, pumayag na ko.

i know, i'll make them happy...and i will do my very best for them. wish me luck. :)

[10:48]

Just another love story.

2009-05-29T23:09:00.010+08:00

am I inlove or what? the heck! hindi ko na alam. hahaha. hmmmm. remember the guy whom i call "manok"? siya, siya nga. siya ang salarin. hahaha. i can't believe it. grabe..... after 5 months (i guess), eto na naman ako. inlove na naman. hahaha. and sana tama na nga 'to. (wait, bakit ko ba hinihiling na sana tama na nga?) hahaha. naloloka na ko.

this guy kasi, hindi ko naman ineexpect na magkakagusto ako sa kanya. ehh hindi nga siya pasado sa "requirements" ko. he's not even my "boyfriend material". hahaha. wait, bago pa kayo mag-isip ng kung ano-ano, i'm telling you right now, HE'S NOT MY BOYFRIEND. he's just my suitor. i just wanna clear things. nililigawan niya ko kahit na alam niyang hindi ko naman siya sasagutin kasi first, hindi nga siya ang boyfriend material. second, gusto ko pag nagkaka-boyfriend, serious relationship. ehh parang di naman ganun yung gusto niya. and third, magkalayo kami. he's in Molino and i'm in Cavite city. hanep. pero inlove na talaga ako sa kanya. ewan ko nga kung bakit. hindi siya yung guy na pinapangarap ko. hahaha. isa na doon yung pagiging chickboy niya. yes chickboy siya, eventhough tinatanggi niya sakin yun, chickboy talaga siya. hahaha. SOBRANG dami ang nagkakagusto sa kanya (hindi ko siya masisisi kasi gwapo naman talaga siya). and isa pa, he's not that serious (i guess). pero may mali. meron talaga. pero i don't think na mali ba talaga yun.

ang "friendship" naming dalawa ay kakaiba. parang hindi nga kami friends ehh. we were like more-than-friends. haha. yes ganun na nga. eventhough hindi pa kami, we act like we're a couple. lagi niya sinasabi sakin na wag ko raw siya ipapagpalit kahit kanino. ehh bakit? hindi naman kami di ba. pero yun na nga, parang kami na kung mag-act kami. he tells me "i-love-you's" and he really cares for me alot. kahit ako hindi ko aakalaing magkakagusto ako sa ganung lalaki. maybe because iba lang talaga siya sa past loves ko. ngayon lang ako nagkaron ng ganitong experience sa love. hayyy..

may isa talaga siyang attitude na nagustuhan ko sa kanya. and maybe it is the reason kung bakit ako na-inlove sa kanya. yun yung pagiging sweet niya in an unusual way. bakit unusual? ganito siya manglambing. he will start calling me "baliw", "ewan ko sayo", "epal ka eh no", "ay pilosopo siya" and after niya ko sabihan ng ganun, he will simply whisper "i love you" at dahil sa whisper lang yun, magtatanong ako ng "ha? ano". edi uulitin niya ulit. hanggang sabihin niyang "ehh ako, love mo ba ko?". hahahahha. ang sweet sweet niya talaga. sobraaaa. yun nga lang, sana hindi siya ganun sa iba. lagi ko nga sinasabi sa kanya "marami ka namang love ehh". then he will reply "hindi nu". ehh yun lalaking yun, marami talagang crush. haha, ang landi no. daig pa ko. haha. sasabihan ko siyang "sus, dami ka namang gusto ehh" tapos naalala ko, sabi niya sakin "inaamin ko, marami akong crush, pero ikaw lang love ko." weeeee. hahaha. medyo naniniwala na nga ako sa kanya kasi sabi rin ng ate niya nung nakatext ko siya one time, hindi naman daw ako pagtyatyagaan ng kapatid niya kung hindi ako gusto nun. and kung di daw ako gusto nun, hindi na ko pinansin nun. hehehe. tsaka nung isang araw, magka-usap kami sa cellphone. naka-Unyt siya. ayun, magdamag kaming magka-usap. madaling araw pa yun. from 12mn-6am. napa-isip nga ako, kung di ako gusto nun, bakit pa siya magpupuyat para lang maka-usap ako, di ba? haha. hanep talaga. as of now, i can't understand our situation at ayaw ko pa munang seryosohin eventhough seryoso na nga ako sa kanya. haha. kasi malapit na ring matapos itong "fairytale" na 'to. malapit na ang pasukan. and as what i have said, chickboy siya. maaari siyang makakilala ng bagong girl. i don't know pero, natatakot akong mangyari yun. hayyy. super masasaktan talaga ako pag nangyari yun kaya as of now, ayoko pa talaga seryosohin 'to. hmmmm.

[11:49]

One of the BEST three days of my life. :D

2009-05-16T20:07:00.026+08:00

(it's May14-16 not 15-16. hehe.)

just got home from our Stake Youth Conference sa Cavite State University sa Indang. haha. sobrang saya ko. kahit na super sakit na ng katawan ko ngayon. worth it naman lahat ng sakit at paghihirap nung araw na yun. dami ko natutunan and nagkaron pa ko ng bagong friends. :D

ang nasa isip ko dati bago mag Youth Con., boring siya kasi Cavite Stake lang ang kasama di tulad dati na kasama pa ang Naic, Dasmariñas, at San Gabriel. kahit ganun pa man ang ineexpect ko mangyari, nabago yun. SOBRANG SAYA.

there are 10 tribes doon na magsisilbing group namin which are Gad, Levi, Reuben, Simeon, Isachar, Asher, Dan, Zevulon, Naptali, and Benjamin. i'm with the tribe of Simeon na maraming members na di ko kilala but I am with my very clost friend, Trixie, kaya hindi ako masyadong na-OP. XD haha.

ikukwento ko na lang sa inyo ang ilan sa mga nangyari sa buong three-day Stake Youth Conference from day 1 to day 3. :) (medyo detailed)

Day 1: May 14, 2009
our arrival time sa CSU, Indang is 9:00 am and nakapunta kami dun ng around 8:30am. nagregister muna kami and after nun pumunta na kami sa room namin (na sobrang init dahil wala kaming electric fan. T-T) haha. tapos nun pumunta na kami ng gym para sa Opening Ceremonies. dun na rin pinagsama-sama yung mga magkaka-tribe. nung 12:00 noon na, kumain na kami. nagprepare na rin kami para sa Group dynamics na magaganap after ng lunch. nung group dynamics na, doon ko lang nakausap yung mga ka-tribe ko. una naming ginawa ay gumawa ng flag na magsisimbolize ng tribe namin. doon din ilalagay yung star kung sakaling manalo kami. hmmm. buong time na yun, may hinahanap ako. hehe. si "manok". :) manok siya kasi mukhang siyang manok dahil sa buhok niya. :"> i'll tell you later kung sino siya. XD back in our schedule, naglaban laban na ang mga tribe. parang Olympics. nagtakbuhan kami sa oval ng CSU nun nang magkakasama. dalawang tribe yung nakalaban namin. and i think pangalawa yata kami. haha. nag Tag of War din kami. kalaban namin ang Reuben na maraming members na malalaki ang katawan at karamihan ay mga lalaki samantalang kami, karamihan girls tapos maliliit pa yung katawan. haha. as usual, talo kami. haha. pagkatapos ng "olympics" kumain na kami ng dinner and nagprepare na rin para sa dance social namin na ang theme ay Polynacian. unahan talaga kami sa banyo pag naliligo. and sinuswerte talaga ako dahil tuwing magshoshower ako, dalawa pa lang kami sa banyo ni Trixie and solong-solo namin yun. haha. tapos namin magshower nagprepare na kami para sa dance social. kung di mo alam yung dance social, yun ay isang "party" na sayawan. boys can dance with the girl/s they want. pwede ring girls ang pumili ng kasayawan nila. LOL. haha. pagpunta namin sa hall, sobrang kabado ako. first, dahil sa ipeperform naming Hawaiian dance na kahit kelan ay di ko pa nasasayaw sa buong buhay ko kundi nung gabi lang na yun. and second, ako ang opening prayer. haha. may third pa pala, yun ay dahil sa makikita ako ni "manok" na sumayaw ng Hawaiian dance. eww. haha. XD natanggal yung kaba ko nung natapos na namin iperform yung dance namin. ang gaganda rin ng sayaw nung ibang ward. may sumayaw pa nga ng Jai Ho ehh. ahehe. after nun, sayawan na. first dance ko nung gabing yun ay si "manok" na napakakulit. kung anu-ano pinagsasabi habang nagsasayaw kami. and after three songs niya pa ko pinaupo. sabi pa niya "upo ka muna. babalikan kita." :"> :"> :"> haha! after niya, sinayaw naman ako ni kevin. *ahem* pagkaupo ko, binalikan na ko ni "manok". haha. after three songs na naman bago niya ko pinaupo. after niya si von naman nakasayaw ko na kapatid ni kevin. *ahem* ulit. haha. tapos niya, naubos lahat ng natitirang songs ng kasayaw ko si "manok". haha. kilig naman si ako. bwahaha. XD tapos nun, bumalik na kami sa room namin and nag-ayos na. tapos natulog na kami. natulog ako ng may ngiti sa mukha. *naks* haha.

Day 2: May 15, 2009

ang aga namin nagising. we woke up 4:00 am because we have to be ready by 5:00 am for our morning exercises sa oval. nag warm-up kami and tumakbo rin ng isang beses sa oval. after nun, nag scripture study kami with our tribe. ang scripture reference namin ay:

"Let no man despise thy youth but be an example of the believers, in word, in conversation, in charity, in spirit, in faith, in purity."

1 Timothy 4:12

yan din yung theme this year. after ng scripture study, nag-breakfast na kami at pagkatapos pumunta na ulit kami ng gym para sa workshops. meron doong sewing, plumbing, carpentry, grooming, and peeling. mas marami akong natutunan sa carpentry. inosente kasi ako. wahehehe. dumiretso na rin kami sa pool para sa first aid something pag may nalulunod. habang papunta sa pool, nakasabay ko maglakad si "manok". as usual, puro kalokohan na naman yung pinagsasabi. haha. pagdating namin sa pool, tinuruan kami kung panu sumagip ng nalulunod. marami rin nagvolunteer kung paano gawin ehh kahit di sila prepared. may ibang nagvolunteer na nakapantalon pa. haha. pagkatapos ng workshop na yun, nagswimming na lahat ng may gusto. hindi ako kasama kasi naka-jogging pants lang ako. hehe. tapos nun unahan na naman sa banyo maligo. swerte ulit ako dahil yung naliligo ako, karamihan ay nasa canteen para maglunch. haha. around 2:00 pm nagstart na yung scripture mastery. contest yun. magsasabi sila ng mga situation then magsasabi ka ng scripture verse/s na babagay doon sa situation. kelangan mo muna hanapin sa Bible bago sumagot. isa lang nasagot ko. yung Romans 1:16 hirap kasi. ang gagaling nung ibang tribe. haha. may halo rin yung games. sayang nga ehh kasi di kami nanalo. hehe. tapos nun nagpractice na kami para sa spectacular. binigyan kami ng 2hrs para gumawa ng isang short play na tutugma sa theme namin. yun nga ay yung 1 timothy 4:12. kulang na kulang kami sa practice nun and wala pa kaming facilitator kaya pagdating ng 7:00 pm, di namin alam kung pano gagawin namin. nakakahiya, kasi yung ibang tribe kahit na 2hrs lang yung binigay, SOBRANG GALING nila. kaya ayun, tatlo sa kanila yung nanalo. galing nga ehh. tapos nun bumalik na kami sa room namin para matulog. bago kami natulog, pumatay pa kami ng salagubang at ng paru-paro na pumasok sa room namin. haha. yung araw nga pala na yun, feel namin ni Trixie may stalker kami. pero alam ko siya talaga yung iniistalk nun. kuhanan ba naman siya ng stolen pictureS. haha. pero cute siya ahh. haha. XD

Day 3: May 16, 2009
last day na namin. karamihan samin malungkot. hehe. nag morning exercise muna kami and kalapit pa namin yung stalker ni Trixie. weird nga ehh. hehe. tapos nag breakfast na kami at nagprepare na para sa testimony meeting. nagbigay ang lahat samin ng testimony about sa nangyari buong tatlong araw. by tribe yun kaya hindi ako gaanong nahiya nung nagbigay ako ng testimony. dami nag-iyakan kasi nakakatouch yung mga binigay na testimony nung iba. sabi rin namin "kahit na wala tayong nakuhang stars, masaya pa rin tayo. walang sisihang nangyari. at hindi lang naman sa stars masasabi na panalo tayo. lahat tayo panalo." :) dami talaga napa-iyak nun. dami kasi samin ang nalungkot kasi la kami star. isa na ko dun. hehe. after nun, nagdevotional na kami then nagclosing ceremonies na. nandun ulit yung stalker ni Trixie. kumukuha ng pictureS kahit na halatang halata na namin. haha. tapos nun naglunch na kami and nagpaalam na rin kami sa mga friends namin. nagpaalam na rin ako kay "manok". habang magkasabay kami maglakad, sabi niya: "la ka ba talagang pic dyan? (tinuro niya ID ko)". la ako pic nun ehh. sabi ko: "wala ehh. sayo na lang." gets niyo yung sinabi ko? haha. kasi siya tatlo yung pic na nakalagay sa ID niya. isang nakadikit and dalawang nakalagay lang dun. tapos nun, binigay niya sakin yung isa niyang pic. sabay ngiti. nung pumunta na siya sa bus nila, sumigaw ako "bye manok!" tapos sabi niya "bye!" :"> hahaha. tapos nun lumapit naman sakin si william. nag-usap kami kasi di ko siya gaanong nakausap. haba na nga ng buhok niya ehh. tapos ayun, umuwi na kami. grabeeeeeeeeee, sobrang bitin ako. haha.

every year, nagkakaron ng Youth Conference ang church namin. kaya ayun, one year na naman yung hihintayin ko bago ulit maulit yun. :( sobrang saya talaga. dami ko natutunan. enjoy pa.

about nga pala dun kay "manok", nasabi ko na rin yung tungkol sa kanya dati dito ehh. yung conversation namin sa chat. hehe. iba siya sa mga guys na nagustuhan ko. XD ang hilig niya ko awayin pero joke joke lang. pagkatapos ako awayin, lalambingin ako. nakakatuwa. haha. yun nga lang, di ako dapat maging ganun ka-happy kasi kahit sabihin niyang may gusto siya sakin, lam ko na may iba rin siyang gusto. kaya di ko muna seseryosohin. mahirap na. :)

here are some of our pictures. :)

(our dormitory)

(CSU oval. that is so wide.)

(flag making)

(dance social)

(our dance presentation. nasa left side ako. na-cut nga lang yung kuha sa picture kaya di ako kita. haha.)

(flag retrieval at the closing ceremonies.)

basta masaya talaga ako. alam ko kahit yung iba masaya rin. kahit na ngayon, sobrang sakit ng binti ko dahil sa kakalakad at kakatakbo, worth it naman. dahil alam naming lahat na iisa lang ang sentro ng activity na ito, at yun ay Siya. our Savior, Jesus Christ. :D

bye guys. thanks for reading. tcGb. :)

[10:09]

This will going to be fun!

2009-05-11T00:21:00.005+08:00

i am so much excited for our Stake Youth Conference. :) that will be on May 14-16. for those who have no idea what a Stake Youth Conference or SYC is, it is a program of our Church which is The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (kinda long, eh) for the youths, like me. siguro maicocompare ko siya sa isang youth camp pero ang pinagkaiba lang ehh, you're not going to sleep in tents, have bonfire, or whatever. it is a three-day program where you can meet new friends pero member din siya ng church. there are so many activities there which can help you gain your faith in God. there you can also enhance your talents and self-esteem. tinuturo rin dun ang iba't ibang mga things na makakatulong sayo in your everyday life. meron rin doong stage play or road show which we call "Spectacular" na nagpapakita ng lessons for the viewers. madalas na pinapalabas doon ay story sa Bible. the next night naman, meron namang party/dance social. our theme for this year is Polynacian so we have to dress like Polynecians but still following the standards. on that dance social, we get to dance with others (opposite sex) and know them by talking.

there are so much activities in our church that can help us youths and isa na dun itong upcoming SYC namin. i am so much excited dahil magkakaron na naman ako ng bagong friends and makikita ko na ulit mga old friends ko from other places. and i know may bago na naman ako matututunan. :] ok, so much for that. i'll tell you na lang guys what will going to happen on our SYC on my next post. :D take care guys!

[11:42]

I hate being sick. ;(

2009-05-08T20:28:00.004+08:00

hachoo! ugh.... bwisit na sipon to. kasalanan to ni Emong ehh (name nung bagyo). dahil sa bagyong yan, sobrang init ko kahapon. it's been a year na yata since last na nagkaron ako ng sakit. nung isang araw kasi, nabasa ako ng ulan. then, kinabukasan, i have to go sa church para mag-practice ng sayaw namin na ipeperform namin sa Stake Youth Conference sa May 14-16. nung papunta kami ng kapatid ko sa church kasama si Jonelle, inabutan kami ng ulan. tapos sarado pa yung church kaya we have to wait sa labas. kahit may silungan na kami, nababasa pa rin kami. ayun tuloy, pagkabukas ng church, pumasok na kami kaagad, then habang nagppractice ng sayaw, nafeefeel ko na ang init ko na. nung pag-uwi namin, humiga na kaagad ako and natulog. paggising ko sobrang init ko na. T.T grabe, feel ko pwede ng magluto ng fried egg sa ulo ko ehh. kainis yung ganung feeling. tpos sinisipon pa ko. errrr. ayun, buong hapon nakahiga lang ako tapos paputol-putol yung tulog. pag-uwi ng mama ko, bumili siya ng gamot. thanks sa Biogesic, kahit papano nabawasan yung init ng katawan ko. haha. ngayon, sipon na lang meron ako. sana bukas wala na. :D haha. sige yun lang.

take care guys. :]

[8:46]

Hmm, already contented.

2009-04-22T22:07:00.004+08:00

obviously, i have a new layout. or should i say, template. nakakasawa na kasi yung luma ko. hmm. boring. hehe. i think 100 times kong pinag-isipan kung papalitan ko ba kasi nasanay na ko na yung normal ang ginagamit ko. hmm, after so much thinking, i made up my decision na eto na yung gagamitin ko. sasanayin ko na lang sarili ko. hehe.

nagandahan ako dahil dun sa nakasulat sa taas. lyrics yan sa kanta ng Paramore - Crushcrushcrush. tapos nagagandahan pa ko sa background. :) simple lang siya (that's why i like it).

BTW, hindi pwedeng magcomment sa post ko dahil sa bago kong template. (don't know the problem of the designer kung bakit ganon ang ginawa niya. hehe) anyways, dun na lang kayo magcomment sa tagboard ko kung sakaling magcocomment kayo. thanks! :)

[10:12]

LOL! XD

2009-04-17T23:21:00.005+08:00

guys, i had my blog rated. hahaha! and the result (tantananan!):

haha, mabuti na lang. that means that my blog is suitable for all ages. no foul words were found in my blog. yea! XD

[11:25]

Surprise, surprise?

2009-04-14T23:47:00.003+08:00

ugh. i think my whole high school life was already ruined. nababadtrip na talaga ako. hmmm. isa sa pinangarap ko bago ako maghigh school ay magkaroon ng maayos na section kasama ang mga classmates na ok. na hindi KJ, hindi super grade conscious. errrr. yah know why i'm telling these things? ugh..

bigayan ng report cards namin kanina. and guess what? pang first na ko sa room namin. well, surprise, surprise. nagulat talaga ako nun kasi i'm NOT really expecting na magiging first ako. past grading periods kasi, nakakapasok ako sa top ten. tapos nung third grading pang second ako. pagdating ng last grading, hindi na talaga ako nag-aaral sa mga tests. kahit group projects di ko na iniintindi (maliban dun sa newspaper namin). ayoko kasi maging first. you know why? kasi malaki ang posibilidad na mapunta ako sa first section kung sakaling mangyari yon. at AKOYO DOON!! T.T wala pang assurance na doon nga ko pero almost 90% ang possibility na doon nga ko. haaaay. baliktad ako no? imbes na matuwa ako kasi first ako at mapupunta ako sa first section, naiinis pa ko. well, ibahin niyo ko.

nasanay na ko for three consecutive years na masasayang classmates ang kasama ko--hindi KJ, may mga kalokohan, lagi pinapagalitan ng teacher, at hindi mga grade conscious. ayokong magbago yun lalo na't fourth year na ko this coming school year. last year ko na yun tapos ganun pa magiging last classmates ko. since then talaga, di ko na gaanong gusto yung iba sa first section. parang pagnagsama kami sa iisang room, magkakaron ng gyera. haaaay. matagal ko na rin naman sinabi sa mama ko na kung sakali mapunta ako sa first section, ipalipat niya ko. sabi niya na huli na lang daw kami mag-eenroll para hindi isama yung name ko doon sa first section. siguro kaya malakas ang loob ni mama sabihin yun kasi alam niyang hindi naman ako makakasama sa first section. pero kanina nung sinabi ko sa kanya yung "good news" ko, super tuwa niya. pero ako...nakasimangot. sabi ko na ipalipat ako, ayaw. nagalit pa. sabi mabuti nga makakapsok ako dun. sabi ni mama pagbutihin ko daw para makapasok ako sa top10 para daw pagdating ng pagkuha ko ng test sa college, makapasa ako sa school sa Manila (na gusto ko talaga). ehh ASA naman ako! hindi naman ako ganun kaGC para makapasok sa top10. hello?! errr. marami pang malulungkot (para sakin) na pwedeng mangyari pag doon ako sa first section mapunta. isa na dun yung pagiging seryoso ko na TALAGA, wala ng kalokohan, and isa na ko sa mga "mabababa" sa section na yun. tapos pag retreat sila kasama ko. haaaay. kahit na may mga friends rin naman ako sa section na yun, mas marami pa rin yung hindi ko makakasundo. mas gusto ko talag yung mga classmates ko na maging classmates ko pa rin sa fourth year. :(

as of now, i'm still hoping na di matupad kung anu man yung inaalala ko. pero sa tingin ko madidisappoint parents ko kung malaman nila na di na ko sa first section. basta, i'm still hoping *crossed fingers*. ayoko masira buong high school life ko dahil dun. inaasahan ko pa rin na maraming tataas sa first section at hindi na nila kailangan ng bagong classmates. and kung sakaling doon na ~~talaga~~ ako, i'm hoping na kasama ko rin na lilipat dun yung two kong classmates na pang second and third sa ranking namin sa room. haaaay. :'(

[12:26]

Paramore's funny moments. xD

2009-04-13T22:56:00.003+08:00

i wanna share you guys this video i saw on YouTube. obviously, about sa paramore na naman. hehehe. here are some funny videos of paramore. hahaha, ang cute nila. XDD

funniest part for me, 4:25-4-48 :D

ps: Josh is so hot. Lol. 2:00-2:16

[11:46]

Ngiti hanggang tenga. :))))

2009-04-11T21:40:00.004+08:00

hahahahahaha! :"> nakakatuwa tong gabing to! sobra. XD surprised na surprised ako sa mga nangyari. kanina kasi yung graduation ng seminary namin sa church. sa imus chapel ginanap. honestly, di dahil sa graduation kaya ako natutuwa. it is because.......may nagtapat sakin.....na may crush siya sakin. actually, sabi niya, crush niya pa rin ako. nagulat ako kasi di ko naman alam na may crush siya sakin dati. hahaha. natutuwa ako sa kanya. yung guy kasi na yon, taga imus siya. ngayon lang ulit kami nagkita kaya ngayon niya lang nasabi yun sakin. bago kasi mag-graduation ng seminary, matagal na niyang sinasabi sakin sa chat na may sasabihin siya sakin pagdating ng graduation. di ko alam yun pala yun. hahaha. nakakatuwa talaga. :))))

di pa dun nagtatapos ang kasiyahan ko, hahaha. pag-uwi ko kasi, nagOL kaagad ako. bigla akong pini-em ng friend ko. sabi niya kung gusto ko ba makausap yung kapatid niyang boy and friend ko rin. edi pumayag ako. ang ibig sabihin niya palang usap as in mag-usap gamit ang mike and head phone. hahaha. akala ko chat. edi ayun, nag-usap kami nung kapatid niya. eto yung iba sa pinag-usapan namin:

Siya: uy. muka ba kong babaero?
Ako: oo! hahaha.
Siya: panu mo naman nasabi?
Ako: halata sa ichura mo ehh!
Siya: hindi no.
pause
Siya: uy, bakit ang ganda mo?
Ako: ewan ko sayo. loko loko!
Siya: aw loko loko naman.
Ako: *blush*
Siya: may bf ka ba ngayon?
Ako: wala.
Siya: pwede mag-apply?
Ako: loko loko ka talaga!
Siya: ano nga? ano, pwede ba?
Ako: ewan ko sayo! hahaha.
balik siya sa tanong
Siya: muka ba kong babaero? di naman ehh.
Ako: oo nga. halata sa muka mo. hahaha.
Siya: try mo kaya. ligawan kita. para malaman mo na stick to one lang ako.
Ako: loko loko ka talaga!
Siya: oo nga. gusto mo pumunta ako jan sa bahay niyo ngayon ehh.
Ako: bahala ka. loko loko ka talaga.
Siya: alam mo...crush kita. kaya nga kita nilagay sa featured friends ko ehh.
Ako: ewan ko sayo.
Siya: ayaw pa maniwala. sige bye na. hehehe. di ako babaero ha.
Ako: oo na! hahaha.

hahahaha! kulang pa yang pinag-usapan namin. ang kulit kulit niya. sobra. dati ko na siyang friend and crush na rin. ewan ko lang kung ganun pa rin ngayon. haaaaay. nako baka mahulog na naman ako sa sweetness na yan. dyan ako napapahamak ehh. :(( hmmmm. basta masaya ko ngayong araw na to. :D un na muna iisipin ko. hahaha. XD

[10:26]

Yo, I have a new FRiEND. :D

2009-04-09T22:38:00.003+08:00

hahaha. may bago akong friend. i met him last last week pa. actually matagal ko nang naririnig name niya kay bryan (childhood friend ko). lagi ko rin siyang nakikitang kasama ni bryan everytime magkikita kami.

dati, tuwing napunta sila dito sa computer shop namin, tahimik siya. hindi ko siya kinakausap dahil sa hindi pa naman kami close. then one time, nagcomment sakin sa friendster. nagtatanong kung pwede kami maging friend. edi pumayag ako. then after nung magcomment siya, tuwing magkikita kami lagi ko na siya nginingitian. :D he's nice. really. di siya tulad ng iba kong naging friend na boys na matagal pa bago ko naging kaclose dahil sa mhiyain. siya kasi hindi.

well, ngayong araw, i mean ngayong gabi, nagcomputer siya dito. pero hindi niya kasama sila bryan. nakaupo rin ako sa isang computer dito kasi may gumagamit nung server namin. isang pc lang ang pagitan naming dalawa. tapos bigla siyang nagsalita, "friend!". edi napatingin ako. sabay nagtanong siya, "may YM ka ba?". hindi ako makasagot kaagad kasi katabi ko rin si kuya (baka kasi kung ano isipin nun). sumagot naman ako. sabi ko "oo meron. i-me-message ko na lang sayo sa friendster. after awhile, may bago ng nag-add sakin sa YM. siya nga. hahaha. nakakatawa siyang kachat kasi ang kulit. natawa nga ng walang dahilan ehh. medyo gumulo lang yung pagchachat namin nung may lumapit sa kanyang dalawang bata at kinukulit siya. hahaha. sabi pa nga, "kuya ***, sino yang Pamela? girlfriend mo no!" hahaha. kunwari na lang na wala akong naririnig nun. wahehehe.

sana magtuloy-tuloy pa yung pagkakaibigan namin. di tulad ng mga "mabilisan" kong naging friends na boys dati, nung simula ko lang naging close tapos ngayon halos wala na kaming communication. bihira na lang yung kumukumusta sakin. hmmm. hahaha. nakakatuwa talaga. ^^

[9:55]

Family Outing.

2009-04-08T20:16:00.003+08:00

nung monday, april 6, nagswimming kaming buong pamilya. actually, hindi pala buong pamilya kasi di nakapunta si kuya. for some reasons, i really don't know why. well, sanay na rin kami sa kanya na ganun. na hindi namin siya nakakasama sa karamihan ng pinupuntahan namin. anyways, natuloy rin yung outing na binabalak namin. celebration talaga yun ng birthday both nila mama and kapatid ko nung april 3 and kasama na rin yung birthday ng twin bros ko nung march 18.

ang venue namin ay doon sa dati naming house sa ronquillo, here in Cavite city rin, na ginawang private pool ng tiya ng mama ko. ayos naman yung lugar. di siya gaanong malaki kasi private pool lang naman yun. almost 3:30pm na kami nakapunta doon. kaming five munang magkakapatid ang nauna at sumunod na lang sila mama after nila matapos ayusin yung mga food na niluto. nandoon din yung friend nila mama kasama yung dalawa niyang anak na matagal na naing di nakikita. yung dalawang anak ng friend ng mama ko ay dati na naming kalaro. actually, yung isa lang kasi yung isa malaki na siya. nakakatuwa kasi kahit ang tagal-tagal na naming di nagkikita ehh ganun pa rin sila. close pa rin kami sa isa't isa. yung nasa pool pa nga kami naglalaro rin kami ng kung ano-ano. parang nagflash back yung dati. kasi ganun din kami dati nung mga bata pa kami. naglalaro pa nga kami ng Bratz ehh. hahaha. XD nalaman ko na matanda ako sa kanya ng 2years and yung kapatid ko naman ay matanda sa kanya ng 1year. hehehe.

pumunta rin doon yung iba naming friends sa church. marami kaming food na hinanda kaya nabusog naman. nakakatawa nga yung mga friends nila mama na babae ehh. nag-iinuman kasi sila (not included si mama) tapos sayaw ng sayaw and kanta ng kanta sa karaoke. tapos yung mga kanta ehh pang mga 80s pa yata. hahaha. niloloko nga nila si papa ehh kasi si papa hindi nainom, sinasabi na kung sino pa ang lalaki siya pa yung parang "matino". hahaha. yun rin ang kinagusto ko sa parents ko. hindi sila nainom and alam ko dahil gusto nila mag set ng good examples saming magkakapatid. hehehe.

super saya talaga ng araw na yun (kahit kulang kami). inabot na kami ng 10:30pm dun. parang ngaun lang ulit naulit yung ganun sa family namin. kasi dati nag-o-outing din kami sa iba't ibang lugar pero ngayong malalaki na kami and mas malaki na rin ang gastos, di na kami gaanong nalabas, kahit sa SM lang. hehehe. pero masaya naman ako na kahit di na kami tulad ng dati, sama-sama pa rin kami. masaya pa kami. hehehe. sana maulit yung ganun. na magsama-sama ulit kaming mag-outing. an saya talaga! :DD

[8:35]

Obsession.

2009-04-04T22:28:00.008+08:00

whoa, these past few days gumagrabe na talaga imagination ko. hahaha. hindi lang yon, gumagrabe rin ang addiction ko sa Paramore. this summer kasi, wala akong ginawa dito sa bahay kundi tumunganga sa harap ng computer. twing tinatamad ako mag-fs, pumupunta ako sa paramore.net kung saan ang official website ng paramore. tinitignan ko doon yung pictures and videos nila. ok, before that, para doon sa mga hindi nakakaalam kung ano ang paramore, here's a quick description about them:

Paramore is an American rock band that formed in Franklin, Tennessee in 2004 consisting of Hayley Williams (lead vocals/keyboard), Josh Farro (lead guitar/backing vocals), Jeremy Davis (bass guitar), and Zac Farro (drums). The group released their debut album All We Know is Falling in 2005, and their second album Riot! in 2007, which was certified platinum in the US and gold in the UK and Ireland.

i was obsessed with them since i was 1st year. i first heard their songs on my ate's iPod. si kuya talaga naglagay ng kanta dun kaya thanks to him, adik na adik na ko ngayon sa paramore. may iba nga rin akong mga friends na dahil sakin naadik at nalaman na rin nila ang paramore.

so these past few days while surfing the net, habang nanonood ng videos nila, naisip ko na sana makita ko si Hayley Williams someday harap-harapan. kung kakailanganing magsulat sa Wish Ko Lang gagawin ko. lol. hahaha. napaisip nga ko na makikita ko lang sila ng personal kung magcoconcert sila dito. doon pa nga lang sa makita sila ng personal parang napakaimposible na, doon pa kaya sa magconcert dito sa Pilipinas. haaaay. asa pang magconcert sila dito. nakakahiya na makita ng mga idols ko ang lagay ng Pilipinas ngayon.

sana one time makita ko sila ng personal. kahit mahawakan ko lang ang red hair ni hayley ayos na! promise ko talaga na pag nalaman kong magcoconcert sila dito (kung sakali lang), pag-iipunan ko talaga makabili ng ticket. gusto ko yung doon sa harap. hahahaha. grabe talaga. nakakalokong isipin na dahil sa isang banda nagkakaganito ako. hehehe. wish ko lang talaga ngayon ang makita sila ng personal. T.T huhuhu. lolz.

[11:43]

32 songs in 8 mins.

2009-03-28T13:46:00.012+08:00

i heard this song last last night. astig! haha, kumanta siya ng 32 songs in 8 mins. well, actually, not the whole song but a few part of it lang. narinig ko siya sa radio habang pinapatulog ko sarili ko. sabi nung radio DJ na kung gusto daw idownload yung song pumunta lang daw sa multiply niya. so the next day, nagsearch kaagad ako sa i-net. ang hirap naman idownload sa multiply kaya nagsearch na lang ako sa Youtube. ayun nakita ko rin. astig talaga. ang cute pa nung guy. (ü) haha.

[1:55]

My Night

2009-03-16T17:05:00.011+08:00

this post was kinda late. forgive me for that. well better late than never, right? Lol. :) ok, my post was about our JS prom held last March 7 (na kasabay ng ERASERHEADS The Final Set, and i hate it. bakit pa kasi kailangan sabay di ba?) hehe. sa tingin ko kasi 60% makakanood ako ng Final Set kung hindi sinabay yung JS. hahaha, ok enough with that. nangyari na eh.

JS prom was very exciting. first time kasi. before March 7, me and my friends are already planning about that. kung saan magpapaayos, kung sino magsusundo. haha, very exciting talaga. forgive us for being innocent about JS prom. XD nakakatuwa yung mga classmates kong boys before JS. kasi nagyayaya na kaagad sila sa mga girls na gusto nila isayaw (para wala daw magrereject sa JS.)

nagstart yung JS ng 7:00pm and guess what, late kami. haha, nakakahiya nga ehh. grand entrance pa. me, camille, mari and nicole were late and naubusan pa kami ng upuan nila camille and nicole (si mari kasi kasama tropa niya.) Sir Expectacion first told us three na dun muna umupo sa mga Fourth year kasi may three chairs pang bakante. after ng mga opening remarks and chuva chuva, naghanap na kami ng permanent seats namin. luckily, nakahanap naman. kasama namin doon yung three girls from the first section. then our happy moments just began. we started to danced..danced..danced. happy kami kasi sinayaw kami ng mga close friends namin. after the dancing, waiters started to serve us our main course which is the rubber stake. sa P600 na binayad namin, ang cheap cheap ng food and ang flexible pa. parang chewing gum. di namin malunok. hahahahaha, dinaan na lang namin sa tawa ang pagkagutom namin. then The Class Prophecy and Class Will and Testament followed.

i havn't told you about "this guy" whom i really like because of his cuteness before, right? my friends say that he's not that cute but for me, he is very down to earth. :) he is from the first section. nabalitaan ko rin na magaling siya sa math. haha, what a coincidence. :D the reason why i am talking about "this guy" is because my friends at first section did something for me. they offered a favor to "this guy". sinabi ba naman na isayaw ako. UNEXPECTED. sinayaw nga ko. i was super dooooper out of myself that night. i don't know what to do. nung kasayaw ko siya, same words lang ang lumalabas sa mouth ko. puro na lang: pasensya ka na sa kanila. pasensya na talaga. nahihiya talaga ako sa kanya. kasi alam ko na napilitan lang siya nun. pero ayos na rin kasi kahit ganun di siya tumanggi. WTH.ü well, no big deal naman sakin yun. big deal talaga yun sakin kung kusa niya ko yayain (in my dreams!) haha.

after ng special moment ko, tuloy tuloy na ang happiness that night. unexpected things happened like yung nakasayaw ko yung dalawang guy sa fourth year na di ko naman ineexpect. tapos maraming nag-aminan na sa kanikanilang mga feelings. haha, and isa pa. yung di namin ineexpect na last dance namin, nangyari. haha, ayos naman. hehe.

natapos yung sayawan namin nung nagclosing remarks na yung two emcees and the program ended at around 1:00am. we all went home with a happy face. now we all know what really happen in JS proms. :)

special thanks to this guy who made my night complete ü:

[6:56]

Rap in peace.

2009-03-14T17:10:00.006+08:00

it's a BIG shock on me when i heard that unexpected news on the tv. i was having my lunch last friday, march 6. nanonood ako nun ng Eat Bulaga. then, biglang nagcommercial. napaisip tuloy ako kasi hindi naman nagcocommercial ang EB pag game show na. then nung tapos na yung commercial, lahat ng hosts ng EB nasa labas. yung iba umiiyak, tapos narinig ko na lang si Vic S. sabi na namatay na daw si Francis Magalona nung tanghali lang nun. grabe, biglang nagsitaasan balahibo ko. i was so sad when i heard that news. i wasn't a big fan of Francis M. but i really like his songs. so patriotic. hindi ako makapaniwala na he would die at his young age. nakakapanghinayang. haaay. well that's life. we have to accept everything that is happening in our lives.

as of now di pa rin ako makarecover sa nangyari sa kanya. =( haaaays. i wanna buy FMCC tuloy. haha. kainis talaga. whenever he is in the news napapaiyak talaga ako. sana siya na talaga ang gawing National Artist. he deserves it.

we love you Francis M.

[6:03]

Burdens

2009-03-04T22:45:00.008+08:00

i'm already tired from doing a lot of things today but i still wanted to post here on my blog. i don't know what keeps on pushing me from posting but then, i will continue.

i thought that this 4th grading will be a lot easier than the previous gradings. i thought that there will be less projects and easier tests, but my expectations were wrong. i am now doing a lot of projects and it is one of the reasonS why i can't post here on my blog. luckily, i have my free time for today.

these past few days, i have a feeling of "quiting" in life. get it? i don't like what's happening in my life these past days. i'm encountering a lot of problems. problems in school, in family, and in friends. i don't know how to handle it all. it's all a big burden that i will carry everyday. every night, i just wanna cry out all my hardships. i kept on asking myself why all these things are happening to me. i can't explain and enumerate all my problems because they are so many! ugh. this is the first time that i encountered these lot of problems. before, i know how to handle problems. but this time, i'm out of control and there's this time that i wanna........... hmmmm.

i know that God has given me these problems because he knows that i can solve these. but why am i feeling like this? why am i feeling so depressed and quiting? or maybe i am just elated.

for now, i decided not to plan ever again to end my life. i just needed someone to comfort me. as simple as that. i just wanna be more faithful to God so i can solve my problems with no worries. i will continue doing things that i should do plus, things that will give me peace. i'll be a good daughter, a loyal friend, and a more industrious student.

[11:16]

When she's hurt, i'm hurt, too.

2009-02-27T21:20:00.007+08:00

February wasn't supposed to be a "broken-hearted" month. February is the month of love but why all these things are happening to us, especially to my closest friend, camille. lagi na lang siya heart-broken and i don't want seeing her like that. when she's hurt, i'm hurt, too. and unfortunately, lagi na lang yung lalaking YUN yung nakakahurt sa kanya. i don't know if he's doing it intentionally but i still believe that he is a good guy. but i don't think he's a good guy for camille. most of the time, he's sweet to my friend especially when they're talking to the phone, but one day we found out that he is not ONLY sweet to camille, but also to the other girls in our room. what kind of guy is that?! minsan nga napapa-isip na nga ako na baka pinapaasa lang niya si camille. and i don't like that! my friend doesn't deserve that. sobra-sobra na ang pagmamahal sa kanya ni camille. wag niya sana abusuhin yun.

the worst part of the story is, one of our closest friend confessed to us that he like the guy whose i'm talking about recently and......that guy was courting our friend "secretly". what kind of life is this?! now my friend was suffering from heartaches. wala naman yun sa kanya kung iba yung niligawan nung lalaking yun pero, close friend kasi namin yung niligawan ehh. and before, camille was telling (love) stories to our friend. and todo support naman yung friend naming yun. that's why we're so surprise to hear from our friend that she like the same guy that camille like.

these past few days, we snob that friend of ours, not because we're mad at her, is just that, we just let time to heal my friend's heart. healing a heart wasn't that fast. we just wait for the right time to come for us to be "close friends" again.

to my dearest friend, camille:
choi, kaya mo yan. trial lang yan sa life.
di ka bibigyan ni God ng burden na di mo kaya.
magtiwala ka lang sa sarili mo.
and remember, true love waits.
di lang 'to siguro yung right time for you to love.
and surely, he's not the right guy for you.
anu siya sinuswerte?!
and as the saying goes: marami pang iba diyan.
don't loose hope.
hindi pa katapusan ng mundo.
life must go on. ok?
so tahan na. :)
dito kami lagi ni nicole at mari para sayo.
we love you. :DD

[10:05]

Happy heart's day!! XD

2009-02-17T20:14:00.008+08:00

nobody said that you cannot celebrate Valentine's day when you're loveless, right? LOL. haha. well i celebrated my Valentine's day at the Imus chapel. we had there the Stake Youths Valentine's Party. and guess what, i am the representative of our ward for the Princess of the Night. haha, ganito iyon. they offered me something. sabi nila na kami daw ni Melbourne ang representative ng Cavite 1st to dance Cotillion. so pumayag naman ako. when February 14 comes, hala, hindi ko alam na contest pala iyon. hahaha, wala pa kong experience sa mga ganoong contest that's why i was so nervious that night. pero enjoy naman. i met a lot of new friends from other wards. so ayun, contest nga yun. sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko, bahala na si batman. haha! unfortunately, hindi ako nanalo. pero that's ok kasi good sport naman ako. experience din iyon nu. XD haha.

ok enough with that contest. :)) nung dance social na, i was SOOOO as in SOOOO HAPPY! haha, andaming nagyaya saking sumayaw. some are my old friends and some are just new. and eto pa, isa dun.....si KEVIN. haha, ewan ko ba kung bakit ganoon na lang ako kasaya nung nagkasayaw kami. samantalang dati inis ako sa kanya. hehe, almost three times ko nga siya nakasayaw ehh. and siya ang last dance ko.ü basta i was so happy that night. :)))))
wala man akong OFFICIAL love for now, marami namang nagpasaya sakin nung Valentine's day. i can now testify that Valentine's day is not just only for lovers, it's also for loveless like me! :D haha.

here are some of our pictures:

look at those faces. we're so happy! (me, jonelle, cha, jazlyn, gizelle)
Cavite 1st Ward Youth

Before leaving the chapel. We're now ready! XDDD

[8:33]

January 28, 2009

2009-02-01T15:20:00.003+08:00

something special happened last Wednesday, January 28. (sorry for the late post.) i was so very happy on that day. :DD ok, to begin with my story, i'll start from the time i woke up. :) haha.

around 6:30-11:00, i was on our church. my activity kasi ang young men. nakisingit lang kaming young women. hehe, ok enough with that. when i returned home, i already fixed myself kasi pupunta kami ng mga groupmates ko sa bahay ni Camille (groupmate) sa kawit para ayusin yung newspaper namin. we met at McDonald's after lunch. when we're complete na, sumakay na kami ng bus. when we got to Camille's house, we already did our project. as usual, ako yung my pinakamahirap na gagawin. hehe, ang maglagay ng margins. haha :D then i received a text from ace. guess what, unli siya (mabuti na lang unli rin ako) haha, so ayun nagkatext kami. then tinanong niya ko kung bakit ako nasa kawit. sinabi ko naman kung bakit. when i was telling that to him, nasa bus na rin siya, on his way home from school. then bigla niya na lang naisip na panu kaya kung magkita kami. pumayag naman ako kasi MISS ko na siya. and i also wanted to see him. he told me na magkita na lang kami sa fire station. sa kawit rin yun.

when we're already through with our project, umuwi na rin kami. we ride the bus. dun na ko bumaba sa fire station to see him. una nga di ko pa siya nakita ehh. nagtago pa yata. hehe, then nung nakita ko na yung isang lalaki na naka blue polo, lumakas na yung tibok ng puso ko. tapos biglang lumapit sakin. haha, it was him! di ko talaga maexplain yung feelings ko when i saw him. yung time na yun, gusto ko talagang tumigil yung oras. gusto ko siyang i-hug. haaaay D: hmm, then nung wala na kaming masakyang bus, nagtricycle na lang kami. from kawit to noveleta. haha, then sumakay na kami ng bus. lahat yun treat niya. nahihiya nga ko ehh. laki kasi ng nagastos niya. when we got to cavite, niyaya niya kong kumain sa jollibee. haha, ang kulit kulit niya. sobra. di pa rin siya nagbabago. nakakamiss talaga siya. after nun, hinatid niya na ko sa bahay. while walking niloloko niya ko. sabi kasi niya ilakad ko raw siya sa ate ko. haha, pagnagtabi yun sila aakalain ng iba mag-ate sila. wahehehe. then something happened. biglang tumahimik. bigla niyang kinuha kamay ko. hinawakan niya ng mahigpit. then he told me namiss kita. sabay smile. grabe para akong natunaw sa smile niya. well too bad hanggang dun na lang yun. sa pasmile smile. nung nagbye na siya, nagkatitigan kami. kala ko kung anu mangyayari, bigla niyang pinindot yung ilong ko. hehe, then bye bye na. nagthanks ako. nagthanks din siya. naglakad na siya. sumakay na ng jeep. haaaay. i was so happy when i went inside. but i feel something incomplete. no more i love you not like dati. dami na talagang nagbago. pero i think dito kami magiging happy. we'll wait na lang until we're ready AGAIN for that relationship.

[4:11]

Busy month..

2009-02-01T14:55:00.002+08:00

today's the beginning of Heart's month, February. and i will be expecting a lot of happenings this month, i guess. so i also have a lot of reasons to excuse myself for not writing on my blog. (; nahh.. just kidding. i think mas kailangan ko ngang magpost ngaung month ehh. to keep some happy memories. hehe, and kung matutuloy yung pagbili ko ng new cp, maipapakita ko na rin yung mga pictures on the coming events (yey!!) so here's some of my schedules:

Feb 7: sasama ako sa best friend ko sa church niya.
Feb 9-10: practice of our field demo for our foundation day
Feb 11-14: foundation day
Feb 14: stake youth ♥'s party @ rosario chapel

i didn't include my schedules for our newspaper making. i'm not yet sure pa kung kailan ang mga araw na yun. pero i'm sure na once or twice a week kami gagawa. dadagdagan ko pa yan kung my upcoming events pa. but for now yan muna. hehe, what a busy month. D:

[3:16]

Best friends?? ):

2009-01-25T22:08:00.002+08:00

it's already 10:00 and i'm still awake. kailangan ko na ngang matulog ehh. because of my "waking-up-in-the-morning" problem. remember? anyways, ang daming nangyari this past two weeks. i've been so busy doing a lot of things related to school that's why wala pa kong recent post.

haay. buhay nga naman. ang daming problema. hindi ko na nga maintindihan sarili ko ehh. naloloka na ko. one of my problems i'm talking about was about my best friend. she's been my best friend since grade four. i never replaced her. and now, i have this feeling na hindi na kami bagay na maging mag best friends. or maybe i'm just being so over reacting. i am more selosa kasi pagdating sa best friend ko. especially when i see her happy with her other friends. :((((((((( because of that bumababa na rin tingin ko sa sarili ko. feel ko wala akong kwenta. haaay. i tried nga not talking to her one day. titignan ko kung mararamdaman niyang nagtatampo ako. pero di ko natiis. after a few minutes pinansin ko rin siya. bakit kaya ganun??? sa tingin ko nga ako na yata ang pinakaloyal na friend niya ehh. aminado ako na yung little secrets niya and not-so-important secrets niya nasasabi ko sa iba. but those are just unimportant things. but when it comes to serious and confidential secrets, super zipped mouth talaga ako. ewan ko na talaga. nagbago na kasi siya. madalas na kaming mag-away. and ayoko ng ganun. siya lang talaga ang best friend ko na alam kong naiintindihan ako. ]:

marami pa kong problems na gustong ikwento pero next time na lang. it's already late. i have to sleep na. maybe on my next posts ikwekwento ko na yung iba. hmm....

[10:28]

Not-so-good day.

2009-01-09T21:41:00.002+08:00

ang gulo ngaung araw. kainis pa. hmf. nung umaga ok pa ehh kasi masaya ako nun.ü after lunch biglang nagbago. haha, kainis ehh. dami nangyari.

chemistry[1:20-2:30]: ako na nga yung nagmagandang-loob (wow) na magpahiram ng notebook sa chemistry, ako pa yung ... hmm anu ba tawag dun?? ahh basta. and take note, one of my closest friend pa yung nakagawa nun. she borrowed my chemistry notebook kasi and when we got to our room, dun niya lang naalala na naiwan niya yung notebook namin sa locker niya. and my seatwork pa kami! ehh super bait nun ni ma'am. kapag walang notebook automatically ZERO na sa seatwork. haha, argh. i know that she didn't do it intensionally pero sana naman nagpakita siya ng concern. i'm very disappointed of her. to think na one of my closest friend ko pa siya. haaaaay. nagbago na tuloy tingin ko sa kanya. ):

religion[2:30-3:20]: kapag minamalas nga naman. after chemistry, religion na. isa pang mahigpit na teacher. chemistry pa lang, nasa friend ko na sa kabilang section yung libro ko kasi hiniram niya. ayan nagmagandang-loob na naman ako (wow ulit). nung religion na namin, tinanong ko na sa friend ko yung book ko. ang sabi binigay daw kay ano. yung iba sabi na kay ganito daw. garabe. sa sobrang kaba ko na baka pagalitan ako ni sir kasi wala akong book, napaiyak ako. pero i'm not showing them. then i just found out na nasa likod lang pala yung book ko. and no one is holding it. my book was just on the top of the chair. nung nakita ko yun, sobrang lumuwang na yung hininga ko. pero badtrip pa rin. =/

araling panlipunan[3:20-4:20]: nung dumating na si sir, napansin ko na parang pupunta yata kami sa AVR. edi ayos. hindi ako magsusulat ng lecture sa board (na halos araw-araw kong ginagawa simula monday). aba, bigla na lang nagsalita: ahm, sanarez. halika hija. maikli lang. simula dito hanggang dito. maikli lang. maikli daw noh. yan ang kadalasang sinasabi sakin ni sir kapag may gusto siyang ipasulat sakin sa board. hindi pa ba napapansin ni sir na badtrip na ko. well, wala na rin akong magagawa. teacher siya. student niya lang ako. tapos umalis na si sir. may gagawin kasi yung ibang teacher para sa mutya ng san sebastian. ehh kasama siya. kaya nung time na yun wala kaming teacher. kainis talaga. lalo akong nabadtrip. halata na rin yun ng mga classmates ko ehh kasi ang gulo-gulo na ng sulat ko sa board.

haaaaay. three times in a row minalas ako. did i done something wrong? is this what they call karma? karma dahil sa pagpapahiram ko ng gamit ko. errrrr. napa-isip tuloy ako kung magpapahiram pa ako ehh. mabuti na lang nagseminary ako after school. nasa church ako kaya umayos na rin pakiramdam ko. what i need to do is kung paano ko maibabalik yung tiwala ko sa friend ko. )))))):

[10:26]

Cause and effect.

2009-01-05T18:50:00.002+08:00

wahaha. first day of school. kainis. tuloy tuloy na ang pagiging masipag ko. haha! baka minsan na lang rin ako makakapag-post. errrr. anyways, my expectations last saturday were wrong! haha! yung mga grades ko sa periodical exams last december ehh not that bad naman. :DD hmm, isa na lang ang hindi ko sure.........mapeh. i hate it. may galit yata samin si ma'am eh. kasi ang test niya, ganito, test I 1-40 identification. no choices talaga. then test II 1-45 enumeration. what the heck. hindi naman namin gagamitin yung mga tinuturo niya samin sa music and arts pag laki namin eh. aanhin namin ang ancient egyptian arts, gothic art, indonesian music, thai music, etc. haha! errr. basta i'm expecting na hindi lang ako yung mababa dun. i know almost 3/4 of the class didn't study kasi ang alam nga namin tulad lang last grading yung test namin doon, na may choices. tsk tsk. isa pa pala, dahil sa absent siya ng absent last grading, hindi kami nagquiz sa kanya. kahit isa. kaya yung periodic test eh ginawang 40%. magaling ngang teacher yan. haha! iniisip ko na lang lagi ay maliit lang naman ang points ng mapeh sa card eh. ;) haha, good luck na lang sakin bukas.

sobrang hindi ko na talaga kayang gumising ng maaga. kainis. lagi na lang ako nalalate. good thing kanina, pagpasok ko, hindi pa nagsstart ang flag ceremony. last night kasi inalarm ko yung cellphone ko ng 5:00. grabe, nagising ako 6:00 na. haha! hindi ko man lang narinig yung alarm. sa sobrang antok ko at kulang sa tulog, nakatulog ako kaninang mapeh. hahaha! :DD mabuti na lang at hindi naglesson si ma'am. hmm, mamaya talaga matutulog na ako ng maaga. hindi na ko magbababad sa computer. tsk! ;)

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Unexpected one.

2009-01-04T12:53:00.002+08:00

hmpf. grr. haaay. today is sunday. we went to church. and every sunday talaga ineexpect ko na magsisimba rin siya. pero lagi na lang hindi. nagiging inactive na siya sa church. but not this time. after our sacrament, i saw someone outside. biglaan. i don't know that he was there ---- si ace. my ex slash my love.ü grabe, biglang tumibok ng mabilis ang heart ko. kasi sobrang tagal na naming di nagkikita. november 29 pa yata kami huling nagkita. haaay. kakaiba ang feeling. dati galit na galit ako sa kanya dahil sa nalaman ko. ngayon parang nawala lahat ng galit ko. mas tumimbang pa rin yung love ko sa kanya. (: what the heck! hindi na kami. bakit ganun pa rin ang feelings ko sa kanya? omigash! haaay. pero sa tingin ko hindi na siya ganun sakin. i think his feelings also changed. ): i miss him. i miss him soooooooo much. kanina hindi man lang kami nag-usap or nagtitigan man lang. ewan ko nga kung nakita niya ko eh (kasi hindi rin naman ako nagpakita. haha). nung tapos na yung sunday school namin, i'm expecting na mag-uusap kami. guess what, umuwi na pala siya. haha! di ko man lang napansin. my friend just told me: sino hinahanap mo? si ace? umuwi na! kanina pa. kasama sila ...... etc. sa tingin ko matagal na naman bago mangyari yung ganito. )): sana next sunday magsimba ulit siya. i miss him. D:

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Getting serious, ha.

2009-01-03T17:15:00.002+08:00

this day was sooooo boring. i have nothing to do but to sit infront of the computer. errr. i wake up late and ate my lunch late. after ko kumain, direcho kaagad ako sa computer. i realized na nakakaboring rin pala ang puro computer lang. hindi rin ako lumabas ng bahay (new record ;]). waah. sobrang nakakatamad talaga. good thing hindi ganito ang nangyayari sakin araw-araw.

two days to go, back to school na. i hate it. balik na ko sa pagiging seryoso. balik na sa pag-aaral. urgh.. and just a few weeks na lang bigayan na rin ng report cards. i think bumaba ako. i didn't study well last periodic exams kasi. i just said to myself: madali lang yan. hindi na ko masyadong mag-aaral dyan. ayun. almost half of my subjects i think i have low grades. if i could just only rewind what happened last december, aba! siguradong mataas na grades ko sa lahat ng subjects. ;] sabi nga ng motto ko: babawi na lang ako sa next grading period. haha! as usual, since 2nd grading hindi pa rin ako nakakabawi. tsk tsk. but i will start na sa pagtupad ng new year's resolution ko. i will study hard na and that will start on monday. at the first day of school this year. :))

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Goodbye 2008, goodbye memories.

2009-01-01T17:23:00.002+08:00

It's the first day of the year. my first time to make a blog, and my first time to share my toughts and feelings. i shall say good bye na to 2008. mahirap kalimutan ang mga memories n "yun". our happy memories. but i have to. para hindi na rin masaktan. ):

well, ang saya ng year 2008. half of the year, i've spent it with HIM. he's been my life. kaya ganito na lang kahirap talaga kalimutan siya as my better half. meron man kaming communications pero parang once a week na lang. and not like dati, na may nafefeel akong kilig. halos everyday siyang nagtetext para lang sabihin na mag-ingat ako at para ipaalam niya that he loves me. hmm, marami na rin kaming misunderstandings kaya na rin kami siguro nauwi sa ganung ending. it's hard for me to let go of him. even though na wala na kami, i still act like his girlfriend. i still care about him. pero sa tingin ko hanggang dun na lang yun. actually, cupcake ang tawag ko sa kanya dati nung kami pa. and the reason why i named my blog next to it kasi cupcake is loooove talaga. i still love him kahit na hindi na tulad ng dati. he's my FIRST TRUE LOVE and also my first heartbreak.

last night, new year's eve, masaya naman. i celebrated new year with my family. dami food. nabusog ako. hehe. halos every new year naman kasi ganun ehh. daig pa christmas. hmm, kasama ko rin last night mga friends ko sa church. masaya talaga ako when i'm with them. they make me forget all my problems.

i love my life last year. soo much. but i shall love my life too this year and in the years to come even though he's not a part of my life anymore. hmm, )):

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